Don’t let the title offend you. I’m genuinely concerned for my brain right now because this amount of addiction cannot be normal for a series of films.
Let me take a guess and predict you’re about to eye roll the fuck out of me right now but I’m Courtney, and I’m a Harry Potter addict. Yes, I know. It sounds insane and it was probably heavily influenced by my trip to the Harry Potter studio tour a few weeks back but my obsession has reached unhealthy levels. Tonight for example, I watched the last film for the six millionth time and still cried. That’s only natural I know but once those final credits rolled it still had the same effect on me. No more Hogwarts. The magic quickly fizzles from my life once that final scene is over and I once again, force myself to start the first film straight after to welcome me home. I’m insane aren’t I?
Honestly, I know I sound crazy but this week my evenings have consisted of doing some work (from home with my small business that i’m subtly advertising right now) and then going to bed for a HP marathon. Tonight I watched the last one and whoops… straight onto the first again. This isn’t normal behaviour and I don’t intend to spend the rest of my life in this magical, satisfying, slytherin loop because life is too short to be obsessed with a screen. See, my brain just said “It’s not a screen, it’s Hogwarts. Hogwarts is life” straight after I tried talking sense into myself.
So after coming to the realisation that my favourite films are becoming borderline obsessive I decided to do some googling.
We all know Google is cyber Satan and it diagnoses you with one hundred things when you simply have a hangover but I couldn’t resist. To my amazement, THERE IS AN ADDICTION PROBLEM FOR HARRY POTTER FANS specifically amongst those who have just finished watching the last film again. They go straight back to the beginning because of withdrawal and grievance… holy shit balls.
Apparently a professor who has studied mental health and addictions for a number of years has found characteristics of addiction in at least ten percent of the four thousand Potter fans they tested. After more studies they found that withdrawal can be as strong as a smoking addiction. If I wasn’t an addict I’d call Rowling evil but she’s my queen so…
I’ve had to accept tonight that i’m spending way more time in a fictional, magical place when I should probably be doing more grown up things. But maybe that’s why I’ve escaped to such a place. I’m a mum, I’m working hard from home and consistently designing each week, I’m trying to learn to meditate more often, I have a home I attempt to look after and I’m sleep deprived 90 percent of the time. Oh, and we have an election very soon which might sound daft to some but the picture of Theresa May flashing her evil fangs are a thing of nightmares. So YES I TURNED TO HOGWARTS. I well and truly went there and bought the tshirt. Quite literally. I’ve also just realised I’m totally justifying the amount I watch Harry Potter. Typical addict.
But I hate obsessions. I’ve never really been obsessed with much else before. So it’s time to kick this to the curb I’ve set myself a daunting, dangerous goal of not watching Harry Potter for the next six months. Oh God, I sound mental again. I want to spend more time reading, meditating, listening to music, writing my blog and venturing outside more often because life really is too short to be wondering why my hogwarts letter never arrived and fulfilling that emptiness with HP marathons every month. So my journey, starts now. Straight after I finish watching the first film again. I promise.
Also, happy one year anniversary Cocorocket! Hopefully by my second year I’ll be cured of this beautiful addiction but let’s be honest. Fantastic Beasts is definitely going to be my downfall.